I'm asked so often, "Don't you get lonely all day long in that house?" "Aren't you going stir crazy?" "What do you want to do with your life?"
I'll tell you the truth: those questions BUG ME. I could answer every single one of them, but I feel that they wouldn't be asked if someone truly understood my situation.
I'll answer them anyway.
YES I get lonely from time to time, but to be honest I have my dog with me, Nells and in the summer, my daughter is home. And really, my days during the school year aren't that lonely because I have at least 3-5 teenagers at my house by 2:35 most days.
YES I go a bit stir crazy but not really. Here's why: I have doctor appointments and other things that keep my schedule full, at least to the extent to what I can handle. I don't really go "stir crazy" because I am a housewife, I am a mother, and I am not at my full physical ability, so I rest A LOT. But on the other hand I DO go "stir crazy" because I want to feel good, I want to be able to do more, I have dreams of a different life.
And the last question-"What do you want to do with your life?": LOTS. Ideally I'd be gone a few nights a week at a Teen Shelter cooking with the kids and teaching them new things. I'd be volunteering at church more than I do, and I'd go hiking with friends. I'd probably work PT because with my husband's job, I technically can be a stay at home mom (which come on world, isn't that OK even if I didn't have health issues???).
I might possibly be in college, because I'd love to be a counselor.
I would row boats, lift heavy objects, bend over whenever I needed to or wanted to, I'd do loads of laundry, clean my bathroom, and scrub the floors. I'd be exercising 5 days a week and gardening. I'd help friends move, and cook every SINGLE night. I would go out to meet a friend at the last minute! I'd drive for hours without stopping. I'd clean out my garage, my laundry room and do more organizing.
Let's see, what else would I do? I'd ride bikes, carry grocery bags, vacuum, and be in a book club.
I'd wash and clean out my car, and be more physically interactive with my daughter.
So for now as I'm still going through the healing process and dealing with the aftermath of so many surgeries and all the consequences they carry, it's things like BIRDS that make my life a little better. They, like my dog Nells, make the day a little brighter.